There will be no pictue with this due to my own vanity. I am now anticipating when Jacob will get up at night, to the point that I am awake before he is! Last night I looked at the clock at 11:20, 12:30, 1:15, 2:30 (when he did wake up to eat), 3:30, 5:30 (when he got up again to eat, but Saint Jason went in to feed him)....I felt like I was awake ALL night long. It is awful because by the end of the week I am a nut case for lack of sleep and Jason has to live with me all weekend as I try to catch up on sleep while he takes Jacob. Last weekend Jason could look at me and I'd cry.
The most accurate description of how I feel is that I am up for New Year's Eve every night of the week with a mixture of staying up late, like I did as a Freshman in college. I'm too old for this type of schedule.
I kept telling myself last night, just sleep until he gets up and then go back to sleep. He eats quickly, but my brain just keeps clicking away....I need to stop the insanity that is my current sleep pattern. I used to be such a sound sleeper...
4 comments:
I hope the exhaustion takes over soon and you just sleep! Isn't motherhood a crazy thing? Who knew you wouldn't sleep even when you are exhausted!?!?!? Hang in there!
It'll get better... hopefully sooner than later. Between hormones and sleeplessness, it can make you emotional. Hang in there. It takes time to get used to the lack of sleep. After 15 years, I know I have! Hopefully you can get some sleep soon!
I totally understand! I have my days too. You have a sweetheart husband to take Jacob all weekend. Eric does try to help, he has him right now and they are napping together, LOL! I'm much more tired with Neal than I remember being with the other two. He is sleeping more at night, which does help me, but I do go balistic at times and hormones don't help. Hang in there and welcome to mommyhood in our "40's" I want to know, did we sign up for having infants in our 40's in the pre-existence? Someone tried to tell me that the other day. I thought my body was sagging before, but I'm here to tell you, my scar tissue from the c-section this time is like 5 times worse. Age is not a pretty site on me and having babies at our age ain't easy; especially trying to get back up off the floor after playing on his blanket and tummy time...ouch! But they sure are cute and those smiles and now little giggles just brighten up the wee hours of the morning!!! LOL
I feel your pain!
Post a Comment