Now, as I read posts about being excited for Christmas break (mainly from my nieces who are in H.S. or at BYU)....that finals are almost over and that, as of tomorrow (Friday), they are done for at least 2 weeks, it makes me miss having a stopping point of my own sometimes.
I love, love, love Jacob, but I am realizing how "addicted" I had become to the "markers (meaning time bound events that had me stopping what I was doing to begin doing something different)" in my life....Thursday always meant Friday was coming, which meant the weekend (stop work, start the weekend)...Thanksgiving, which meant Christmas was around the corner, Christmas break, President's day, which meant the school year was more than half over, Easter break, which meant End of Level testing (and huge stress) was about to ensue.....winding down to the end of the school year, summer break, etc.
As a mother my markers are no longer ALL ABOUT ME! :) Now my life is marked by Jacob eating his first solids, crawling, getting teeth, sleeping through the night, pulling himself up on things, crawling over to me to be held, realizing that if he doesn't like a new food...he can make gagging sounds which stops mom from trying to feed it to him, smiling, laughing, etc. Days blend into weeks which blend into weekends, which blend into months, etc. Nothing stops and starts, it just b-l-e-n-d-s from one new event to the next.
I'm having to adjust from start, stop...to blending...if that makes any sense. :)
My reason to b-l-e-n-d my life now.
8 comments:
You know, you are right. I haven't really thought about it that way...but, you will eventually have your markers back when the little guy starts into the school system. Yours will just be defined a bit differently!!
I get it, I get it! Feel the same way... still not used to the blending of days. It's so weird not to have deadlines.
Although, days do tend to blend, I always marked my time by David's work and school schedule. Now it is marked entirely by my children's schedules (as is David's life-does he even work? :)). Soon Jacob will be starting school (it happens SOOOOOO fast) and you will again be marking time by school again. Jacob is so cute!
I agree with the other comments. Soon the deadlines will return, they will just be different kinds of deadlines, schedules and markers than you previously had. I'm married to a teacher though, so I still have stopping/starting points! LOL! May you enjoy the b-l-e-n-d-e-d days ahead with Jacob! (Oh, Eric went back to work today, but I now have the dreaded cold, so it's a good thing you didn't come!) Hope to see you soon.
I remember feeling EXACTLY this way. (My life REALLY felt like that especially when I couldn't talk to anyone during the day in English---those were very LONG days.) However, now I LOVE my "blended" life and wouldn't want to go back to my old deadline-type of life. You will feel this way one day too---just BELIEVE!!
I hear ya sister! Lately I've felt that it's one continuous Groundhog Day over & over.
Life is good, very good, but rather predictable at times. : )
I am sure it is strange for you to not have those Xs on the calendar. Your life feels more mushy when it comes to those things, when you are a SAHM. Your Jacob is so cute!
Well said. It does seem that all of a sudden summer is here and over and Christmas is here and the year is gone. I guess that's why the saying, "stop and smell the roses" is a good one to remember. :)
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