Do you ever do something and then, after it is done, you think of all the ways you could have done it better? I do.
I think sometimes about all I have done, my mission, my career and now as a mother. In the moment you do the best you can, but looking back you can always see ways you could have done better.
My job is a good example. I worked for 19 years and I still identify myself with that--probably more than I identify myself as a mother. When you work there are markers of immediate success and with education there is always a beginning (September) and an end (May)of the school year.
I belong to the BYU School of Education Alumni Committee and yesterday we had a meeting. The HR director for Provo District is on the committee and I talked to him for a few minutes afterward. The principal position for my old school, Spring Creek, is open again. I knew about it and have thought about what it would be like to go back. He asked if I knew about the opening, I told him I did and it was a little tempting. He said that if I wanted to come back they would take me right now to fill the position.
That was a great thing to hear. You always wonder (at least I do) if you reapplied for your old job if they would take you back? I have looked back on my job and thought of all the things I could have done better and the new perspective that I have now as a mother that would add to what I do.
Then I think about Jacob. If I went back to work he would be at daycare a minimum of 10 hours a day! He would miss me and I would miss him. When it comes down to it, for all the positives that come with work ($$$, retirement, etc.), there are too many things I would miss with Jacob and I look forward to getting involved with him in his own school.
Hearing that they would take me back at work is nice because even though there are things I didn't do, they did value and appreciate the things I did do. Kind of nice to know :)
4 comments:
I'm sure you were a fabulous principal, and what an honor to be wanted back.
I know what you mean about being able to improve if there was another chance. I was grateful that I went back and taught 3 more years after I got married because I was SUCH a better teacher then, but there's still things I'd want to do better.
Jake's super lucky to have you all to himself for right now!
I admire you!!! As a woman, mother and principal. That must be an awesome feeling to know they'd take you back in an instant!! Miss you.
I know you must have been fabulous just by the way you run primary.
I agree with you though that there is nothing more important than being home with your child, especially if you have the luxury of doing that!
We will have years and years to work!
That is awesome and also warming to hear. I know exactly what you mean! There's a time and a season for everything, you need to make the choice that's best for YOU!
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